Being Dad

TSTLately, I have been battling a minor case of plantar faciitis, which is an inflammation of the thick tissue, the plantar fascia, on the bottom of the foot that connects the heel bone to the toes and creates the arch of the foot.   In my particular case, there is a sharp pain or burning in my heel that, when it is present, causes me to walk with a limp.  The problem with a minor case is that the pain is not always present.  Sometimes, it only comes on during a long walk.  More frequently, it shows up after I’ve been sitting for a while and get up to walk across the room.  Or in the middleplantar of the night, when I get up to take care of nature’s call.  Then, I find myself hobbling across the room like a little old man.  Except I’m not all that little.  I’m wearing special inserts in my shoes, and when I remember, I’m strapping my arch for support but there’s certainly more I could be doing … taking anti-inflammatories and certain remedial exercises, for example.   Having only intermittent pain, however, allows Leaky Roof Syndrome to set in.  Never heard of it?  It comes from an old song, The Arkansas Traveler, which tells of an old man, fiddling in his cabin, up to his ankles in water coming in through a hole in the roof.   A stranger stops by, and says, You really should fix your roofCoon’t do that, the old fiddler says, It’s rainin’ too hard.  Well, says the stranger, you sure should fix it when the weather clears.    You give me a pain, says the old fiddler.  Why’d I do that?  My roof don’t leak when it don’t rain.   Leaky Roof Syndrome … why do exercises when the heel doesn’t hurt?

NB409It turns out that one particular pair of shoes accommodates my arch supports best … and is least likely to bring on heel pain later in the day.   You might guess that it isn’t a fashionable pair … it’s my white leather New Balance 409s, also known as the Official Shoe of the Middle Aged Male, a definition that only makes real sense if we’re all going to live to be 120.  Seriously, the next time you’re in a room with a bunch of sixty-plus males, look around.  So, I’ve been living in my 409s.  Yesterday, as I was out running errands, I looked down at my tan jeans and my very white shoes, a fashion faux pas I’d never have committed ten years ago.  And I thought of my Dad.reeboks  Oh, yeah, he’d have been wearing Velcro-tie bone leather Reeboks and tan polyester slacks but the look was unmistakable.  I find that happening more often as I push seventy … I not only do things my Dad used to do … I feel sometimes as if I am my Dad, that somehow, I’m inhabiting his body or perhaps, he’s decided to ride along in mine.

On our way to Arizona last week, some youngster in an oversized pick-up tailgated me for a mile on the 10 Freeway then rushed by impatiently as soon as I was able to get into the right lane, giving me a look as he did.  In the old days, I’d have flipped him off but I launched into a diatribe about drivers of larger trucks.  When I was done and Muri was shaking her head, I said, That was my Dad.   Muri smiled knowingly.  Lately, I find the word Idiot appearing in my vocabulary (as in, Look at that idiot) more often and when an older fellow cuts me off, the phrase, Watch it, Gramps, appears but is unspoken (because I’m a Gramps, too).  I have to be careful to keep some of Dad’s more politically incorrect favorites in my mental holster.  Again, I have that sense that I’m not just sounding like Dad but that we’re inhabiting this old body together.  I asked Muri, Do you ever feel like you’re becoming your Mom?  Not just acting like her?   I mean I can see Violet’s the little hand gestures and phrases showing up in Muri and I know she does, too.   She answered, Yes.  I know just what you mean.  Interesting.

So, it’s Top Sites Tuesday #192 and I have to come up with Two Thoughts on Tuesday.   For Thought Number One, I’ll turn to the lyrics of Bonnie Raitt’s Nick of Time:

I see my folks, they’re getting old, I watch their bodies change…
I know they see the same in me, And it makes us both feel strange…
No matter how you tell yourself, It’s what we all go through…
Those eyes are pretty hard to take when they’re staring’ back at you.

It indeed feels strange and it indeed makes me feel old (which makes it a good topic for Older Eyes – Bud’s Blog).  But there’s another side to that coin (as bud and dadthere always is), which is also a good topic for Older Eyes.   I was very fortunate to get to know my Dad best … as an adult … in his seventies and eighties.  For most of his life, he was not an emotional man but in his last twenty years, he’d tear up talking about his family or how he’d been able to spend his last years in a beautiful assisted living facility. I miss him a lot.  So Thought Number Two is this:  It’s nice to feel, sometimes, as if he’s riding along with me in these most interesting years.  And while I still have to squelch his pronouncements on life sometimes, he also reminds me to appreciate what I’ve got, especially those that love me.  Maybe this is how reincarnation works.

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9 Comments on “Being Dad”

  1. cherperz Says:

    I often wonder about “if there are similarities but I only met my biological mother once and it was awkward, I can’t say if I learned anything at all at our meeting. I saw no physical resemblance. My dad was complicated. I don’t think I am anything like him either. I think I am turning into my grandmother. I look a lot like she did and have a similar sense of humor.

    I think it is wonderful that you got to know your dad as a person…as an adult.

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  2. I do not care if you are old I love you Bud! I love to read your articles so do not stop.

    Love and Blessings,
    AngelBabu

  3. Trina Says:

    I understand a little about the foot pain. After working in construction for so long I developed a terrible back -switching to the New Balance Shoes and adding inserts really helped. No matter how cheesy, a good pair of shoes goes a long way.

    I’m not sure I’m turning into my mother or father, I didn’t know either well, and they certainly led very different lives from mine. However I do relate quite a bit to some old sailors who yell at the stinkpot motor boater that roar down the rivers without cause nor care.

    Clicks!
    –Trina

  4. Wolfbernz Says:

    Hi Bud,

    I’ve torn the tendons in my feet and suffered the “falling arches” it’s awful. Taping the arches at night, wearing the special shoes and the inserts, waiting for what seems like forever for the pain to subside and the tendons to heal is nearly miserable. I feel your pain.

    As far as acting like my father, OMG I thought it was just me, Bud. I find myself doing the same thing, using my fathers mannerisms. Not like it’s a bad thing or bad behavior, but I recognize it in myself.

    Clicks for you!
    Wolf

  5. territerri Says:

    I see my mom in myself. I see my parents in my relationship with Mark. And I was looking at my mom this evening after bringing her and Dad home from the airport. She was looking through her kitchen cupboard for a battery she was sure was there (but wasn’t.) And as I looked at how she stored things and the way she searched through it all, I saw my grandma standing there. As you’ve so eloquently pointed out, there’s both good and bad in the things we inherit from our parents. Hopefully more good.

  6. Susan Says:

    Loved this, Bud. I’ve been thinking about my mother a lot lately, and I hope I am a little bit like her. She was so kind. I know I take after her when I’m cooking. She loved to cook. I made a mess of her southern-style green beans the other day (she was from Kentucky), and knew she and my grandma would have been proud of how long I cooked them to death with that piece of smoked meat. Hope your foot feels better soon.

  7. Glenn Reed Says:

    Well, I thought I posted here, but don’t see it. When I think about being Dad, I want to be DAD! I want to be able to say all the things I am thinking out loud and not care who hears that. I get close some time, but I never get all the way there. I suppose if I ever start being Dad, you’ll know.


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