It has been a long week, a descent from a very happy birthday through the news that my daughter’s family will be moving away to my own futile attempt to avoid the sadness through denial, anger and bargaining (see Navigating Grief). Last night I sent my son-in-law and daughter a note, telling them I was trying to accept their decision. The very act of doing so stoked my anger again but this morning, I feel different. I think am ready for the Grey Ghost of depression to wring the tears out of me and guide me to acceptance.
If you knew me personally, it wouldn’t surprise that I carry on my music devices a Heartbreakers playlist of sad songs to help this reluctant crier bring the tears. All beautiful sad songs. But which one gets to be the Favorite played today. Easy. Shattered Beautiful melody written by Jimmy Webb. It is remarkable how many songs by Webb grace my music files. The most perfect pop female voice in my generation (perhaps any), Linda Ronstadt. And the lyrics …
Shattered
Like a windowpane
Broken by a stone
Each tiny piece of me lies alone
They would rip the heart out of the Gray Ghost himself, if he had one.
Enjoy … or have a good cry … whichever suits your day.
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